Due to a serious and unfair accusation from a friend, my credibility was damaged and friendships were lost. Regrettably, I added to my turmoil by returning to an eating disorder and other destructive behavior. Television, Reader’s Digest, even spending time with close friends couldn’t calm the knots in my stomach. In fact, the only time I felt any type of relief was when I was reading my Bible.
Millie and Paul, a married couple and dear friends, believed in my innocence and were concerned when they noticed I was losing weight and constantly in tears. Concerned, they took me to a counselor. One of the best things the counselor did for me was to suggest that I memorize scripture. She showed me how to make and use Scripture memory cards; and soon, I was memorizing several verses a week.
I began to carry my Scripture cards with me, and meditated on them constantly throughout the day: at red lights, while waiting in line, and especially when facing challenging moments. And as I did, I experienced more of God’s faithfulness in my daily life. In effect, my love for Him deepened and I began to feel His presence.
As I persisted, I became aware of God’s powerful love for me. Thankfully, I was able to find my significance in Jesus—not in others’ opinion of me. I understood that He was in control of my life and had plans for me. Therefore, I was able to resist temptation more often; and choose behavior that pleased God instead.
At last, His grace enabled me to begin the process of forgiving those who had falsely accused me. In time, I was smiling again as hope began to replace despair and fear. Ultimately, I discovered profound joy
Several years went by and life’s pace gathered speed. Most days, I continued my daily quiet times but occasionally I began leaving my Scripture cards at home. Gradually I stopped memorizing scriptures. Evidently, I forgot how much I depended on God to survive and grew confident in my own strength. And guess what? I began to rehash old wounds, which led to my gradual return to destructive and sinful behavior. And worse of all, the joy I once knew began to fade.
More than a decade later, here I am: yearning for the peace and joy I once knew. I want to love God more and show it by obeying Him. I crave to experience, again, the sweetness of His presence lingering within me. I desire my prayer life to grow deeper as I pray from Scripture committed to memory. And with God’s help, I purpose to mature in Christ: stop sinning, stop criticizing, and become more thankful and forgiving. It’s time, again, to dwell in His presence, recapture that joy, and experience His awesome love and peace! However, I can only do these things by hiding His Word in my heart.
Please join me in this endeavor and be a part of The Memorizing Scripture Blog. Let’s begin and share how God’s Word transforms us “far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think!” (Ephesians 3:20).
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