Tuesday, January 7, 2014

When You Can’t Seem to Move On

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“I already said I was sorry – many times,” Carl said to his wife.

“But it still hurts!” Michelle screamed. A tear rolled down her right cheek.

“I know,” Carl answered. “But how many times do we have to go through this? I thought you said you forgave me.” Just before he turned to walk out of the room, he added, “I sure wish you would stop bringing it up.”

Michelle winced. She grabbed his elbow and stood in front of him so she cold look him in the eyes. “I know you’re sorry. I’m sorry, too – I really am – for bringing it up again, Carl.” Her voice cracked. “But I can’t seem to move on. I don’t know how to put this behind us.”

This week, we are on the third verse of memorizing and/or meditating on Ephesians 3:16-20, one verse at a time.
Ephesians 3:18 (AMP)
That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God’s devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it]

Readers, I want to confess that I need to memorize and daily meditate on these verses. I have been experiencing deep insecurities due to a recent painful event. Since I have not yet totally forgiven my friend, the insecurities, hurt and fears have gotten worse; plus, I know God is not pleased with my unforgiving attitude.

Therefore, I am taking steps to overcome this behavior – and the insecurities resulting from the hurtful event – by practicing what I learned from R .T. Kendall’s book, Total Forgiveness and by memorizing (and daily meditating on) Ephesians 3:16-20.

This week’s goal and a New Year’s Resolution:

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I resolve to meditate on God’s massive love for me! In fact, every time I begin to feel hurt, rejected 
or frustrated with someone (or even with myself), I will try to remember to meditate on Ephesians 3:16-20.

Think about it: if I was absolutely secure in God’s love for me, I couldn’t help but love others. His love includes mercy and forgiveness, and it would fill every void. His love for me (and you!) is so immense that Paul (the author of Ephesians) prays that we may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp its immensity!

Father, help me to have the power to grasp and experience how wide and long and tall and deep your love is. Let the awareness of Your immense love for me fill every void and heal every hurt. And please, Lord, give me the desire to love others with the same love You have for me!

Let me hear from you:

  • Are you going through a circumstance right now in which you need to better grasp God’s powerful love? Have you been trying to do so in your own strength?

  • How might meditating on Ephesians 3:16-20 help you change that?

Note: This blog is for anyone who desires a deeper walk with Jesus. I have another accountability blog for women only: CoffeeWithSheryl.com. (Once on the blog, click on the Current Goals tab to see several practical links regarding specific behavior issues, including: quiet time moments, immediate goals (setting task-related goals), addictions, eating/exercising habits, being a better wife/mom, etc.)


  1. Hi Sheryl,

    Another good post. Satan's number one job is to make us doubt God. Doubt His word, His love, His faithfulness, His presence, His provision and Sovereignty. If he can make us doubt, he steals our joy and weakens our witness.

    I think this is a struggle that we all face on one level or another. Thanks for this scripture.

    PS I KNOW that God loves you!!!!!

    1. Thanks, Carol, for your encouraging comment.
      You're right, we do all struggle with the enemy's lies. I have found by constantly meditating on God's Word, I overcome doubt, etc. more often.

      Again, thank you for reading the post and commenting!
      Please keep in touch. I love hearing from you.


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