Friday, April 6, 2012

Anorexia Nervosa No Longer Rules!

Romans 6 (NIV)
:11 In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus.
:12 Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires.

Romans 6 (Amplified)
:11Even so consider yourselves also dead to sin and your relation to it broken, but alive to God [living in unbroken fellowship with Him] in Christ Jesus.
:12Let not sin therefore rule as king in your mortal (short-lived, perishable) bodies, to make you yield to its cravings and be subject to its lusts and evil passions.

If only I was allowed to eat! 

That earnest desire plagued me most of my life. Whose rules was I following that kept me so hungry that my every thought was about food? It certainly wasn’t God’s.

For years, I felt powerless to say no to the behavior associated with anorexia nervosa and bulimia. While I acknowledge eating disorders are considered a mental health issue, I also believe that for some, it eventually becomes a sin issue. It did for me.

As my relationship with God grew, I became aware that I had choices. I could continue to choose to be oppressed by the destructive behavior, or I could yield to God’s grace. But knowing I had the choice didn’t stop me from becoming more creative in my methods for losing weight. And each time I resisted God’s help, I knew I was actively disobeying Him.

The consequences of sin reigning in my body (mind, and soul) cost me my health – and even cost me the raising of my children. (See "Love is Not Jealous” post.)

I felt hopeless and defeated. I no longer wanted to live.

One day while sitting on my couch, I totally surrendered my actions and motives to God, asking Him to help me. I don’t know why that day “the prayer seemed to take,” but since then, I have consistently experienced His grace.

I began, again, to meditate on His Word, especially whenever I felt tempted to starve myself or purge. I made sure every thought was centered on Him. And I chose to believe He loved me- even as I was.

Not long after that, I noticed my love for God was growing stronger than my need to lose weight. In time, by God’s grace, I was able to break free from Satan’s clutches.

I have been free from my eating disorder for almost ten years! Yeah, God!
Today is Good Friday – a very somber day. Every Good Friday I can feel my throat tighten as I imagine how much Jesus suffered and died 2,000 years ago, so that today I can live – and eat! – free from bondage.

So …

     • What sin or bad habit has the knowledge of Christ’s death and resurrection set you free from? If you haven’t totally surrendered that sin to Christ, what better day to do so than Good Friday?

     • As we continue to memorize/meditate on Romans 6, consider asking God to show you what other area of sin you are yielding to. We would be thrilled to pray for you.

2 comments:

  1. My sister Kathy emailed this to me, and asked me to post it as a comment:

    Dear Sheryl,
    I appreciate you sharing with all of us about the goodness of God. Your story about your experiences with Anorexia helped me understand more about your tremendous strength that you have always had yet through the grace of God, you found your strength and I am still amazed by you.

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  2. This is part of my response to my sister's email (previous comment):

    Kathy, just before I opened my emails, I asked God to make me more effective in sharing things about Him. Your email really encouraged me!

    I also think whenever you comment on the blog, others can relate to your "realness." ...this email ... gives a little inside view of a family member's perspective.

    I love you immensely!

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